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		<title>Interview with Virginia Aronson</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[From Double Exposure: A Verse Play in Once Act by Virginia Aronson (Read Aronson’s play in Ensemble Anthology: Art &#38; Hybrid Writing by International Women, no. 1.) During the 1990s, unique snack food vendors appeared across the steamy South Florida urban sprawl: dressed in string bikinis, thongs, or other provocative stripper-style clothing, the “hot dog girls” gnarled traffic while hawking <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/interview-with-virginia-aronson/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<h3><strong><em>From</em></strong><strong> Double Exposure: A Verse Play in Once Act by Virginia Aronson</strong></h3>
<h4>(<em>Read</em> <em>Aronson’s play in </em><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/store/">Ensemble Anthology: Art &amp; Hybrid Writing by International Women, no. 1.</a>)</h4>
<p>During the 1990s, unique snack food vendors appeared across the steamy South Florida urban sprawl: dressed in string bikinis, thongs, or other provocative stripper-style clothing, the “hot dog girls” gnarled traffic while hawking fast food and cold drinks from metal carts parked on high traffic commuter routes. In court and in the press, they fought for the right to work in public in clothing of their own choosing.</p>
<p>In the 1960s, poets and friends Sylvia Plath and Anne Sexton met regularly for drinks at the Ritz bar in Boston, where they discussed their suicide attempts and shared obsession with death. (Both women eventually killed themselves.) The two also shared bouts of madness, difficulties with their mother/wife roles, poetic genius, and a confessional style of self-expression. These two women writers were poised on the razor’s edge of the feminist movement.</p>
<p>Now, Plath and Sexton come alive again in the postmodern personas of hot dog girls Silver and Roxanne. By addressing the audience in dual monologues rather than speaking to one another in dialogue, the hot dog poets present with beauty and rancor the choices all women must make between the suicide of silence and bringing the unmasked female voice to life.</p>
<h3><strong>Interview with Virginia Aronson</strong></h3>
<p>What got you thinking about writing a play about the Hot Dog Girls?</p>
<p><em>When I first moved to South Florida from Boston in the early 1990s, I was absolutely mesmerized by the Hot Dog Girls. Women who sold wieners and soft drinks from vendor carts on busy streets. Women dressed like strippers in teeny bathing suits and leather boots up to the mid-thigh. Busty, sexy women with long pretty hair and huge smiles. They were causing a whole lot of trouble with another crowd new to this Northerner: Southern fundamentalist Christians. God-faring folks who were horrified at the sight of exposed flesh. Then there were the soccer moms who didn&#8217;t want their kids to see women in scanty dress from the windows of school buses. Did they never go to the beach? The rubbernecking caused traffic congestion and fender benders. Local newspapers were filled with complaints. Cities slapped down ordinances, new zoning laws were created overnight. Hot Dog Girls hired lawyers, citing their constitutional rights. They felt they had a right to utilize their own bodies in advertising a product in order to make a living. I was fascinated.</em></p>
<p>And you also chose to make the script in free verse and invoke Plath and Sexton in the characters. How did this come about?</p>
<p><em>Just before I moved to Florida, I attempted to write a play about these two Boston poets. Before they were well-known, Plath and Sexton would have drinks together at the Ritz hotel across from the Boston Common, where they would talk of their mutual attraction to suicide. Eventually, of course, both would become famous and die by their own hands. I love their work and tried to write a play that incorporated images and events from their lives and writings. It felt flat to me and I couldn&#8217;t make it breathe.</em></p>
<p>Once I moved to the land of Hot Dog Girls, I decided to write the piece as a verse play. <em>When I began writing poetry about Florida’s Hot Dog Girls, the voices of Sexton and Plath were influencing me. I could imagine them, mothers and wives, women on the verge of a nervous breakdown, women struggling to have a voice in a man&#8217;s world, and their situation seemed quite similar to those of the women in bikinis on the side of the busy streets in downtown Miami and Sarasota and Fort Lauderdale.</em></p>
<p>Can you talk about Silver and Roxanne, their last statements. Silver talks about suicide, Roxanne about opting to live on.</p>
<p><em>After Plath committed suicide, Sexton wrote about her, and about their friendship. Sexton chose to live on, and did so, despite her depressions, for many years. Then she too ended her own life.</em></p>
<p>What discomforts and surprises did you encounter as you got into the writing? These are not exactly &#8220;nice girls.&#8221;</p>
<p><em>They may not be &#8220;nice&#8221; but they are doing what they can to survive. Why is a Hot Dog Girl less acceptable than a Miss America contestant? Or an actress who takes her clothes off for a scene in a film? Why is it okay to dress like the front cover of </em>Cosmopolitan<em> on a date, but it is not okay to dress like his fantasy woman in order to sell him a snack? Why do we encourage 13 year olds to wear push-up bras and tight short-shorts, yet turn their heads away when we pass a strip joint? Is it somehow different for women to marry for money and/or have sex with the man who just paid the tab at their favorite restaurant? What exactly is so &#8220;nice&#8221; about that?</em></p>
<p><em>Call me a feminist or a radical, but I didn&#8217;t have any discomfort writing &#8220;Double Exposure.&#8221; When the play was performed in downtown Lawrence, Kansas, there were fist fights outside the venue. I, for one, think that might be a sign that the Hot Dog Girls touch an exposed nerve. In Florida and elsewhere.</em></p>
<p><strong>Media Coverage:</strong></p>
<p>Palm Beach County also tried to prove that thong-clad hot dog vendors were traffic hazards, but a traffic study showed there was no link between traffic snarls and the women. Nevertheless, county commissioners in January 1992 passed an ordinance requiring vendors to wear wider thongs after complaints from residents that the women were a religious and moral affront and should be forced to cover up. Responding to a lawsuit filed by a hot dog vendor, a state court later ruled that the law was unconstitutionally vague. The vendor, Gloria Gonzalez, sued the county again last week, seeking reimbursement for wages she lost while the law was on the books. The general reaction from venders is that they don&#8217;t cause accidents, drivers do.  —from a DVD on <em>HDG NEWS</em></p>
<p><strong>Vendor Stands Out<br />
</strong>April 27, 1991</p>
<p>If some Palm Beach County residents were angered by the sight of roadside hot dog vendor Gloria Gonzalez wearing a string bikini, they haven`t seen anything yet. A new vendor wearing pasties-like stickers and a string-bikini bottom has attracted attention at Military Trail and Belvedere Road west of West Palm Beach. About 20 people called county offices to complain this week. Gonzalez became nationally known as county commissioners debated and decided not to pass a law to make vendors cover up. Her clothing was modest compared to her newest competitor.</p>
<p><strong>Vendor Sues County<br />
</strong>Staff reports, November 17, 1993</p>
<p>Gloria Gonzalez, the bikini-clad hot dog vendor, filed a lawsuit on Tuesday seeking damages against Palm Beach County for lost wages. Gonzalez was arrested in February 1992 for violating a newly passed county law that prohibited the wearing of thong bikinis by roadside vendors. The charge, a misdemeanor, was later dismissed because Gonzalez wore a French-cut bikini allowed under the law. A county judge later ruled the county&#8217;s vendor dress code law was too vague to enforce. In her lawsuit filed in Palm Beach County Circuit Court on Tuesday, Gonzalez requests the court to declare the county&#8217;s vendor dress code law a violation of her due process rights under the state and U.S. constitutions and to prevent the county from passing a similar law in the future.</p>
<p>—from <em>Sun-Sentinel</em> files</p>
<h3><strong>Read <em>Double Exposure</em> in <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/store/">Ensemble Anthology: Art &amp; Hybrid Writing by International Women, no. 1</a></strong></h3>
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		<title>Helen Redman</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 20 Oct 2011 22:49:10 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[A Couple About the Painting, &#8220;A Couple of Authors: Cynthia and Barbara” Helen Redman Cynthia and Barbara chose desert colors-deeply connected to their life in the Anza Borrego Desert for the background of their painting. To show the interweave in their relationship, I used each woman’s choice on her side of the canvas, but layered the two different colors together <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/helen-redman/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
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<p><strong>A Couple</strong></p>
<p align="center"><strong>About the Painting, &#8220;A Couple of Authors: Cynthia and Barbara”</strong></p>
<p align="center"><strong>Helen Redman</strong></p>
<p>Cynthia and Barbara chose desert colors-deeply connected to their life in the Anza Borrego Desert for the background of their painting. To show the interweave in their relationship, I used each woman’s choice on her side of the canvas, but layered the two different colors together at the center.  They were one of the most mirrored couples I have ever observed; even their dress, conversation and gesture echoed each other.</p>
<p>Their sharp and moving book (<em>Look Me in the Eye, Old Women, Aging and Ageism, </em>Minneapolis: Spinsters Ink, Second Edition, 1991) opened my eyes to the societal discounting of old women, ageism in the women’s movement, lesbian and gay services, health services and in the politics of beauty. I asked both of these writers to add their own text to the canvas; each with great thought painted the words (printed out below) on to the canvas.</p>
<p><strong>Excerpts from the right side of the painting by Barbara Macdonald:</strong></p>
<p>“Beneath all imposed silences lies power.”</p>
<p>“This is my body doing this thing.  I cannot stop it.  My own body is going through a process that only my body knows about. I never grew old before. Never died before.  I don’t really know how it’s done.  I wouldn’t know when to begin for no time would be right.”</p>
<p>“The truth is I like growing old.</p>
<p><strong>Excerpts from the left side of the painting by Cynthia Rich:</strong></p>
<p>“A white-haired woman with a grey-haired woman talking about lunch&#8230;still they know who we are and they know our power.  They know we are a threat.”</p>
<p>“Our task is to take in these bodies as part of these souls.”</p>
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		<title>Amy Falstrom</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 20 Oct 2011 20:43:37 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Amy Falstrom</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Last Light &#160; Ocean Clouds &#160; Prayer Flowers in the Desert &#160; Solstice Light &#160; Vibrant Field &#160; Winter Moon &#160; Summer Pulse &#160; &#160;]]></description>
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<strong>Last Light</strong></p>
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<strong>Ocean Clouds</strong></p>
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<p><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-131" title="Falstrom.PrayerFlowersintheDesert.oil.-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Falstrom.PrayerFlowersintheDesert.oil_.-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="597" /><br />
<strong>Prayer Flowers in the Desert</strong></p>
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<strong>Solstice Light</strong></p>
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<strong>Vibrant Field</strong></p>
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<p><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-134" title="Falstrom.WinterMoon.mixedmedia.gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/Falstrom.WinterMoon.mixedmedia.gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="450" /><br />
<strong>Winter Moon</strong></p>
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<strong>Summer Pulse</strong></p>
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		<title>Linda Macdonald</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 20 Oct 2011 19:47:27 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Linda Macdonald</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tree Slumber &#160; Tree Park &#160; The Logging River &#160; Summer Smoke 1 &#160; Summer Smoke 2 &#160; Summer Smoke 3 &#160; Hidden See more in Ensemble Anthology no. 1 &#160; &#160;]]></description>
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<p><strong>Tree Slumber</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Tree Park</strong></p>
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<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/macdonald-the-logging-river-gallery.jpg"><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-108" title="macdonald-the logging river-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/macdonald-the-logging-river-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="496" /></a></p>
<p><strong>The Logging River</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Summer Smoke 1</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Summer Smoke 2</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Summer Smoke 3</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Hidden</strong></p>
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		<title>Laura Cunningham</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 20 Oct 2011 18:40:23 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Laura Cunningham</dc:creator>
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		<title>Transformation and Renewal</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 20 Oct 2011 03:07:22 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Lyn Risling</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[My paintings often speak of transformation and renewal. I am a descendent of the Karuk, Yurok and Hupa peoples of northern California. At the core of our cultural ceremonies is renewal. My ancestors had ceremonies every year to “Renew the Earth,” to get rid of sickness and to restore balance to the world. In the Spring there were ceremonies for <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/transformation-and-renewal/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>My paintings often speak of transformation and renewal. I am a descendent of the Karuk, Yurok and Hupa peoples of northern California. At the core of our cultural ceremonies is renewal. My ancestors had ceremonies every year to “Renew the Earth,” to get rid of sickness and to restore balance to the world. In the Spring there were ceremonies for the return of the first salmon and ceremonies for the return of the Spirits of our dances whose purpose was to bring luck to new women and to heal our children. We had ceremonies to renew life and to bring back the deer and the acorns every year and to give thanks to the Earth and the Heavens for providing all that was needed to survive. This painting, called <em>Packing Medicine</em> represents our healing ceremony for small children.</p>
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<p style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-packing-gallery.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-89" title="risling-packing-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-packing-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="617" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Packing Medicine 2007</strong></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Our ceremonial life was disrupted with the onslaught of the gold rush to our area in the mid 1800’s which brought genocide, disease, and destruction to our way of life, our culture, and to our environment. This was followed by more devastation by the lumber industry and by the removal of our Indian children from their families to boarding schools.</p>
<p>In the 1960’s, the struggle to restore our indigenous rights escalated. There were great efforts among our people to assert our given rights to our traditional ways, such as fishing and land use as well other basic rights like education and access to good health care. At the same time, a renaissance began of our tribal cultures, including language, traditional arts, and ceremony. I have been fortunate to be a small part of this ongoing renewal along with family and community. Young and old have worked together to renew most of our ceremonies. Many of our people now dance, sing, and pray to “Renew the Earth,” to renew our natural foods, to get rid of sickness, and to renew our minds, bodies, and spirits. This painting, called “Remaking Our World,” illustrates part of our world renewal ceremony, we call the White Deer Skin Dance.</p>
<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-remaking-gallery.jpg"><img class="size-full wp-image-258 aligncenter" title="risling-remaking-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-remaking-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="580" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Remaking Our World 2005</strong></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>I think my first conscious expression of renewal and transformation in my paintings began to evolve fifteen years ago after my intimate involvement in renewing a Karuk girls’ puberty ceremony for my daughter. The ceremony is about the transformation of a girl into a woman. It is a rebirth. My painting shown here illustrates this transition and reconnection to the spiritual world. The girl is blindfolded for the duration of the ceremony and looks inward through prayer and isolation from the outside world. When her feather blindfold is removed, she has been reborn, looking out into the world with the new eyes of a woman. The experience with my daughter was a rebirth of a ceremony, a rebirth of a girl into womanhood, and a rebirth of myself into a deeper spiritual realm and connection to my culture and ancestors, and to the Earth.</p>
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<p style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-rebirthIntoWomanhood-gallery.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-92" title="Becoming A Woman" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-rebirthIntoWomanhood-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="830" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Rebirth into Womanhood 2007</strong></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Several years ago, I went through a personal transformation when I received a traditional tribal tattoo on my chin which is called Thúkin in our Karuk language and now called a “One Eleven” because of the three stripes. This experience was a rebirth for me, and brought a renewed interest and desire for other Native women in our area to receive this special gift. With the devastation of culture by the early 1900’s, shame instead of beauty became associated with this tradition. There were only a few elderly women who had the tattoo when I was a girl and none were living by the early1960’s. About twenty years later, a handful few women chose to get tattooed by the only available method using a machine. Then in 2004 I was honored to receive my tattoo using a traditional tapping method. The painting here expresses this time of renewal and pays honor to our great grandmothers who wore their tattoo proudly.</p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-tattoo-gallery.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-93" title="risling-tattoo-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-tattoo-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="835" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Tattoo Woman Returns 2005</strong></p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>In our cultures there is a belief that Spirit Beings inhabited the Earth before Human Beings came into existence. As the time of Human Beings drew closer, these Beings transformed into the all the things of the natural world that would help humans to survive and flourish. They became the food and medicine plants. They became the animals, the birds, the fish, and ocean life. Some became the Mountains and Rivers and Rocks. These Spirits gave ceremonies to the first Humans to renew our way of life and to remind us of our connection to the Earth and to the Spiritual world. We have stories that tell us about the time of the Spirit Beings and how things came to be in our world. Some of my paintings illustrate traditional tribal stories that often express the transformation of Spirit Beings into the world and time of Human Beings. In this painting, a young woman Spirit person is transformed into Abalone when she tries to escape from a young man who betrays her love.</p>
<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-abalone-gallery.jpg"><img class="size-full wp-image-259 aligncenter" title="risling-abalone-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-abalone-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="418" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Abalone Woman: Transformation 2005</strong></p>
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<p>Renewal is important to our natural world and to the survival of the traditional way of life of our tribal people. Many of us feel that the rivers in our area are our life blood. They have always provided one of our main sources of food, the salmon. Recently, the health of our rivers and our salmon have become threatened by dams on the Klamath River that have created toxic levels of green algae. I had an opportunity to work with some high school Native youth to create some large painted panels that address the importance of salmon to our people in ancient times as well as today. The renewal and life cycle of our salmon, and the current threats to their survival, have also been a focus of my own personal paintings. The survival of the salmon is like the canary in the mine. Its survival reflects the survival of our natural way of living. I have included here a sample of the large panels done with the students as well as one of my own paintings.</p>
<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-fishing-gallery.jpg"><img class="size-full wp-image-260 aligncenter" title="risling-fishing-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-fishing-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="616" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Traditional Fishing 2007</strong></p>
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<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-hope-gallery.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-94" title="risling-hope-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-hope-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="618" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Hope and Renewal Swim Against the Current</strong></p>
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<p>Recently, I created a painting to express my deep concerns about the state of the world we are in. I feel sadness when I think about the destruction caused by humans to the Earth. This includes the injustices against each other and to other living things. Because of this, there is a great imbalance in the world. Humans have a responsibility to help restore that balance, yet most refuse to accept that responsibility. In this painting, I wanted to convey my belief that the Earth cannot wait any longer for humans to wake up and so has begun to heal and renew herself. Transformation and renewal can be a frightening and painful experience, but it can be the beginning of something new and beautiful. We as humans can be part of an effort to heal and remake our world to one of balance and harmony, or we can let the Earth and the Heavens do it for us. I just recently attended one of our “World Renewal” ceremonies that renewed my hope that we can be part of the healing power.</p>
<p><a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-tears-gallery.jpg"><img class="aligncenter size-full wp-image-95" title="risling-tears-gallery" src="http://ensemblejourine.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/10/risling-tears-gallery.jpg" alt="" width="620" height="859" /></a></p>
<p><strong>Earth&#8217;s Tears of Rebirth 2010</strong></p>
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		<itunes:summary>My paintings often speak of transformation and renewal. I am a descendent of the Karuk, Yurok and Hupa peoples of northern California. At the core of our cultural ceremonies is renewal. My ancestors had ceremonies every year to “Renew the Earth,” to get rid of sickness and to restore balance to the world. In the Spring there were ceremonies for the return of the first salmon and ceremonies for the return of the Spirits of our dances whose purpose was to bring luck to new women and to heal our children. We had ceremonies to renew life and to bring back the deer and the acorns every year and to give thanks to the Earth and the Heavens for providing all that was needed to survive. This painting, called Packing Medicine represents our healing ceremony for small children.

 

Packing Medicine 2007

 

Our ceremonial life was disrupted with the onslaught of the gold rush to our area in the mid 1800’s which brought genocide, disease, and destruction to our way of life, our culture, and to our environment. This was followed by more devastation by the lumber industry and by the removal of our Indian children from their families to boarding schools.

In the 1960’s, the struggle to restore our indigenous rights escalated. There were great efforts among our people to assert our given rights to our traditional ways, such as fishing and land use as well other basic rights like education and access to good health care. At the same time, a renaissance began of our tribal cultures, including language, traditional arts, and ceremony. I have been fortunate to be a small part of this ongoing renewal along with family and community. Young and old have worked together to renew most of our ceremonies. Many of our people now dance, sing, and pray to “Renew the Earth,” to renew our natural foods, to get rid of sickness, and to renew our minds, bodies, and spirits. This painting, called “Remaking Our World,” illustrates part of our world renewal ceremony, we call the White Deer Skin Dance.



Remaking Our World 2005

 

I think my first conscious expression of renewal and transformation in my paintings began to evolve fifteen years ago after my intimate involvement in renewing a Karuk girls’ puberty ceremony for my daughter. The ceremony is about the transformation of a girl into a woman. It is a rebirth. My painting shown here illustrates this transition and reconnection to the spiritual world. The girl is blindfolded for the duration of the ceremony and looks inward through prayer and isolation from the outside world. When her feather blindfold is removed, she has been reborn, looking out into the world with the new eyes of a woman. The experience with my daughter was a rebirth of a ceremony, a rebirth of a girl into womanhood, and a rebirth of myself into a deeper spiritual realm and connection to my culture and ancestors, and to the Earth.

 

Rebirth into Womanhood 2007

 

Several years ago, I went through a personal transformation when I received a traditional tribal tattoo on my chin which is called Thúkin in our Karuk language and now called a “One Eleven” because of the three stripes. This experience was a rebirth for me, and brought a renewed interest and desire for other Native women in our area to receive this special gift. With the devastation of culture by the early 1900’s, shame instead of beauty became associated with this tradition. There were only a few elderly women who had the tattoo when I was a girl and none were living by the early1960’s. About twenty years later, a handful few women chose to get tattooed by the only available method using a machine. Then in 2004 I was honored to receive my tattoo using a traditional tapping method. The painting here expresses this time of renewal and pays honor to our great grandmothers who wore their tattoo proudly.

Tattoo Woman Returns 2005

 

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		<dc:creator>Sheila Packa and Kathy McTavish</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[as if we were dreaming as if night came from the iris as in the giving we gave way and one wild bloom lights the next what&#8217;s left falls into rags and grass lays down at our feet &#160; &#160;]]></description>
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<p>as if we were dreaming</p>
<p>as if night</p>
<p>came from the iris</p>
<p>as in the giving we gave way</p>
<p>and one wild bloom</p>
<p>lights the next</p>
<p>what&#8217;s left</p>
<p>falls into rags</p>
<p>and grass lays down at our feet<br />
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		<dc:creator>Janet Desaulniers</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[__Last night of his life Dan finishes his shift at 24th evac and slips past watchtowers to Long Binh jail. He carries some Quaaludes and a pocketful of notable weed.  Since King got wasted, the brothers over there need serious calm.  His regulars he finds that night standing on crates.  He looks up to see they’ve wrapped their hands in <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/from-an-unreliable-autobiography/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
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<p><strong><em>__</em></strong>Last<strong><em> </em></strong>night of his life<strong><em> </em></strong>Dan finishes his shift at 24<sup>th</sup> evac and slips past watchtowers to Long Binh jail. He carries some Quaaludes and a pocketful of notable weed.  Since King got wasted, the brothers over there need serious calm.  His regulars he finds that night standing on crates.  He looks up to see they’ve wrapped their hands in electrical tape and are working gingerly to roll a string of razor wire inside the tent flap.</p>
<p>Whoa.  Is that for folks comin or goin? They look surprised to see him, say, Don’t you got ears, man?  He best carry his ass back over the ditch because 720 is fixin to toss the place, the whole camp, talkin strip searches and a whole range of indecency too cruel to abide.</p>
<p>That waft Dan walked through, fresh indeterminate insult in the usual hover of sweat, piss and mud, he recognizes now.  Gasoline.  LBJ’s gonna burn tonight.  He doesn’t care.</p>
<p>They say, Truly, man, this shit is urgent.  Just leave what you got and fly.  Dan does, and he considers writing Glynnis the truth. That’s no mortar that crushes his skull.  Please. More likely the business end of a shovel.  Although inside his skull the blow does register as mortar, not blunt but concussive, almost tidal, arriving like a wave or some wind traveled long distance across space and time.</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong><em>vocabulary lesson</em></strong></p>
<p>In tutorials<strong> </strong></p>
<p>with my brilliant student the doctor, taking time off from medicine to write her book of unspeakable truths, I play the village idiot, maybe because I both wanna know and don’t.<strong></strong></p>
<p>—Okay, here on page 79.  What the hell?  <em>Q’ed</em>?</p>
<p>—Oh that.  Game over.  Beyond gorked.  Think O.  Now add a tongue hanging at 5 o’clock.</p>
<p>She looks inclined to demonstrate, but in my head I’ve driven a rental car from the airport, parked, found the right elevator and my own set of images:  railed bed, curtained glass walls, my mother’s half-shaven skull, blood in tarry bubbles at the bite of each staple and yellowing with bruise her face, vacant, collapsed.</p>
<p><em>Q’ed</em>, cruel and exact, I understand as the term I wished to hear each time the door to her room swung open.</p>
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<p><strong><em>peephole²</em></strong></p>
<p>Your Uncle K asserts</p>
<p>the late ‘70s offered neither a particular nor general moral sense.  Not in any city in America.</p>
<p>—I do recall moral <em>despair</em>, he says.</p>
<p>If it’s not too late for introductions, your Uncle K, commentator and helpmate, is my third husband, the one who has so far stuck.</p>
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<p>***</p>
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<p>&#8220;vocabulary lesson&#8221; and &#8220;peephole&#8221; first appeared in <em>Seattle Review</em>, Vol. 2, nos. 2 &amp; 3. Reprinted by permission from author and <em>Seattle Review</em>.</p>
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<h4><strong>Read more of this in <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/?wpsc-product=ensemble-anthology-no-1">Ensemble Anthology no.1</a></strong></h4>
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		<dc:creator>Jessalyn Wakefield</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I’ve wondered a long time if women are actually beautiful or if we simply don’t have another choice, o women, women, women, women, women, dear women, I cannot get over you, dear women, you and your bodies I cannot get over them, they are impassable, you are all mountains, of varying shapes and densities, dear women, you make me sick <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/from-minor-honeys-tape-001/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I’ve wondered a long time if women are actually beautiful or if we simply don’t have another choice, o women, women, women, women, women, dear women, I cannot get over you, dear women, you and your bodies I cannot get over them, they are impassable, you are all mountains, of varying shapes and densities, dear women, you make me sick with obsession, when I go to bed I am thinking of you and when I make my bed in the morning I am thinking of you, even if I am only thinking of myself because I suppose it is time that I admit that I am also a woman, even if I do not like women, or do not want to be one, I am trying to exist more fully in reality, even if I don’t like the rules of reality I have to start understanding them and existing by them before I can really change them and the reality is that I am a woman, whether I like it or not, and believe me, I do not like it, I do not like it and I have not liked it for a long time, for as long as I can remember, which is starting to become a long time in itself, the way women are and the things women do, and how men talk to women and the tiresome difficulties that heterosexual lust present, so I like existing as myself better than I like existing as a woman, this means that I am alone a great deal, when I leave my room I have to be a woman, this is what people see, you understand, I look in mirrors and windows frequently, not because of vanity though I personally have never taken issue with vain people, materialistic people perhaps an issue there yes, but the vain ones are alright, physicality is so transient why not let them glory a bit, the only consequence is their own terror at their own aging, I mean vanity doesn’t bother me it’s just going to bother whoever’s being vain I think I’ve made this point clear, let’s move on, yes I look in mirrors and windows frequently for two very good reasons, one: I am still trying to comprehend the appearance of my female body because I so rarely feel female or feel my body as a female thing and two: I want to make sure I still exist at all because I have known people who lost their reflections for a time, and that always seemed exceptionally dangerous to me, having visual confirmation that you do not in fact exist seems dangerous, what exactly are non existent people supposed to do and when you finally get that wish granted, the wish for non existence, then what, I mean, who’s really thought about what they plan to do once they do not exist because nothing is an end in itself, and though we all wish it was, wishes are prerequisites for punishments you know, I’ve said it before, maybe not today but I have said, so if you wish to not exist and then suddenly you do not exist, what will your punishment look like, what form will that torture take, I hope this time it’s something new, o, let’s do something new, frankly I’m bored with all the punishments, loss and pain, loss and pain, day in and day out, it might as well be a full time job, all the energy it takes up, surely there’s something else,</p>
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			<itunes:subtitle>I’ve wondered a long time if women are actually beautiful or if we simply don’t have another choice, o women, women, women, women, women, dear women, I cannot get over you, dear women, you and your bodies I cannot get over them, they are impassable,</itunes:subtitle>
		<itunes:summary>I’ve wondered a long time if women are actually beautiful or if we simply don’t have another choice, o women, women, women, women, women, dear women, I cannot get over you, dear women, you and your bodies I cannot get over them, they are impassable, you are all mountains, of varying shapes and densities, dear women, you make me sick with obsession, when I go to bed I am thinking of you and when I make my bed in the morning I am thinking of you, even if I am only thinking of myself because I suppose it is time that I admit that I am also a woman, even if I do not like women, or do not want to be one, I am trying to exist more fully in reality, even if I don’t like the rules of reality I have to start understanding them and existing by them before I can really change them and the reality is that I am a woman, whether I like it or not, and believe me, I do not like it, I do not like it and I have not liked it for a long time, for as long as I can remember, which is starting to become a long time in itself, the way women are and the things women do, and how men talk to women and the tiresome difficulties that heterosexual lust present, so I like existing as myself better than I like existing as a woman, this means that I am alone a great deal, when I leave my room I have to be a woman, this is what people see, you understand, I look in mirrors and windows frequently, not because of vanity though I personally have never taken issue with vain people, materialistic people perhaps an issue there yes, but the vain ones are alright, physicality is so transient why not let them glory a bit, the only consequence is their own terror at their own aging, I mean vanity doesn’t bother me it’s just going to bother whoever’s being vain I think I’ve made this point clear, let’s move on, yes I look in mirrors and windows frequently for two very good reasons, one: I am still trying to comprehend the appearance of my female body because I so rarely feel female or feel my body as a female thing and two: I want to make sure I still exist at all because I have known people who lost their reflections for a time, and that always seemed exceptionally dangerous to me, having visual confirmation that you do not in fact exist seems dangerous, what exactly are non existent people supposed to do and when you finally get that wish granted, the wish for non existence, then what, I mean, who’s really thought about what they plan to do once they do not exist because nothing is an end in itself, and though we all wish it was, wishes are prerequisites for punishments you know, I’ve said it before, maybe not today but I have said, so if you wish to not exist and then suddenly you do not exist, what will your punishment look like, what form will that torture take, I hope this time it’s something new, o, let’s do something new, frankly I’m bored with all the punishments, loss and pain, loss and pain, day in and day out, it might as well be a full time job, all the energy it takes up, surely there’s something else,

 
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		<title>from Gardening at the Seam</title>
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		<dc:creator>Judith Larner Lowry</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[An editor of a gardening magazine recently questioned whether this kind of gardening, where ethics and aesthetic merge, using local natives and natural models, is truly representative of “the fine art of gardening.” “Some might consider such simplification the abandonment of gardens as art,” he says. Yet choices are made, plants arranged, an aesthetic developed. It embraces all I know, <a href="http://ensemblejourine.com/from-gardening-at-the-seam/"> READ MORE</a>]]></description>
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<p>An editor of a gardening magazine recently questioned whether this kind of gardening, where ethics and aesthetic merge, using local natives and natural models, is truly representative of “the fine art of gardening.” “Some might consider such simplification the abandonment of gardens as art,” he says. Yet choices are made, plants arranged, an aesthetic developed. It embraces all I know, all I hope to know, and all I wish I knew but never will about this set of ancient processes and associations.</p>
<p>Is it the way of a lazy gardener, as this editor says? I find that horticultural challenges are infinite. I will never run out of species to attempt to bring into this space. For example, I want to establish a stand of Indian paintbrush in the scrub, a red, apricot, or yellow hemi-parasitic plant that probably grew here once but has not so far survived in my garden. Indian paintbrush hosts a particular kind of aphid-eating mite. This mite lives in the flower, where it eats nectar, till a hummingbird comes along to share the nectar. At this juncture, the mite runs up the hummingbird’s beak and into its nostril, where it sits tight while the hummingbird flies down to Baja California. As the hummingbird approaches a nectar-producing plant, the mite gets ready, rears up, and races down the nostril, down the beak, and into the flower. It must move so quickly that it may outrun the fleet cheetah. By establishing this flower in the garden, with its as yet elusive cultural requirements, we may be facilitating this mind-boggling nasal journey.</p>
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<p>Revised somewhat from <em>Gardening with a Wild Heart</em> (University of California Press). Reprinted by permission from the author.</p>
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